It's not true until you see it, but rumor has it I will be stepping back to the artscene starting from, well, now. This week at least. I might give myself a day or two of resting before work.
Right now I feel frightened as I am afraid to dissapoint you and myself.
"Alma, can I even draw anymore?"
"Sure you can."
"I haven't even tried - for real - in ages."
"You'll do great."
"I'm so scared."
"You'll be fine."
We were talking like that for probably ten minutes. Sorry Alma.
I feel giddy because I am lucky to have a sweet husband who takes care of our child so I can paint even though we don't know if we will get enough money. He's great like that. He stays with his job so he can provide for Juni and me, and sometimes tell me he will be happy when I make it big. What a supporting man. Also scares the hell out of me because I really really want this for all of us, and the last thing I want is my life to be some kind of failed art experiment.
I also feel strong because I have broken free from the chains of employment. Took me a while to connect the brain and ignore the lack of spine to actually take the leap. Was saved by the bell and got fired instead (due to bad times for the company not because I was a slacker). To some work IS a freedom, a social thing, or a good money-thing. To me it was an ulcer and lack of periods and migraine attacks.
I tell myself I got sick because I'm awesome, not because I'm frail; my genious mind (remember; stuff I tell myself not stuff I consider to be true) can not be trapped in someone else's world it wants to do it's own thing. And if I can continue to make money it will be proof enough I was right. And if I don't make money I will tell myself it was circumstances that made all that shit and go get another job to pay my bills.
But here I am... Floating mid air... How? Oh! but I'm a ghost I can float you see. I'll make everything work out and this is not scary at all. Or hazardous.
I have coffee to drink now so I'll leave you all for now... I've been up since 3:30 because it was so hot all night, got to love Swedish summer but sometimes it exaggerate a little methink... But at least I started to answer some comments that was over a year old. I'm sorry for the late reply.
I'm here now.
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2018
I think my art will have to sum up the years that has passed. I'm glad they are behind me in that sense I don't regret them but they were hard.
I'm a do-er and even though at times I've had this feeling that my life isn't mine and I'm something of a Sims character it's been amazing in terms of life lessons. I've really had to check out my ego at the door and focus on the important things in life. Me returning here is just a sign things are getting better and I can squeeze in me-time again.
These last few years I've written two books, I'm writing on two more, also working on 3 comics and still making art. Please note: I couldn't help writing
Hello
Another update, that's right, I'm still lurking here although it happens quite seldom still. I am always overwhelmed by the sweet words and likes I find as I return, knowing I've been bad at updating since becoming a mother of two lovely girls. They are now 2 and 4 so time flies, doesn't it? Lately I've been writing a lot of manuscripts, so there has been very little recent art happening over all, but I do update my website www.anneliolanderberglund.com from time to time, feel free to check it out. I also try to stay as active as I can on ello, I love the space, free from commercial ads and weird algorithms.
This year has all been about re-f
Thank You
I've been so bad att answering comments and being active on deviantART, I mean, ok so last time about a year passed, now we're only talking months or weeks haha but still - I'm learning to deal with working on the hours I get in this very busy period of my life.
I'm very happy with my life as it is, but the things I had time to do before I had a baby just doesn't seem to work anymore - like answering comments or updating a lot. I'm not saying it's going to be like this forever, but for now, and for a while. I'm having my second baby this summer, so I'm expecting a year or two with more ghost appearances. But I'll do my best, and I read all y
Work work work
So my oilpainting is finally finished - it's huge! I had so much fun painting it and I'll definitly keep working with oils. Next up on my list is finishing some illustrated books, I've been working with the manuscripts when I haven't been painting hence the silence here. I hope I can give you some sneakpeeks soon of the art tho! :) I've picked up vlogging again so if you want to watch me drawing or babbling visit my YouTube-channel!
http://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1XxmA8idd3YH-owvRh3UkQ
Love love!
Talk soon!
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oh HOW i know this feeling!